Okay if a movie ever starts out with an someone rapping DJ Kahled's you know it's going to be a great.
I always wonder how many many times in her past, Melissa McCarthy looked in the mirror and was upset with how she looked...
or how many times she said mean things to her self...
or felt she was never going to amount to anything....
Or I wonder if she ever thought of her future and thought,
One day I am going to ride into a packed arena on a giant phoenix flipping everyone off.
Or I'm going to be in not one but 2 action movies.
I wonder if I will be the first woman ever to win MTV's Comedian of the year, and crowd surf into my acceptance speech?
How many times did she feel insecure?
Maybe she didn't...
But I can't imagine a loud, overweight, over energetic woman in our society didn't ever not feel self conscience.
I just keep thinking of my future and my past.
And my present.
My Future is full of questions and fears and excitment.
My past if full of regrets, successes, mistakes, victories.
My present. infected tonsils and a recital in less than 2 weeks.
I started this blog because I am often presented with an occasion and I have the opportunity to grab it by the horns of let it overwhelm me.
This is an occasion.
And all I can think is how much I have no control over it.
And how much I am over thinking it, and not enjoying the ride.
I need to ride into tomorrows on the back of a Phoenix.
Rapping DJ Kahled.
Flipping my haters off. =)
Slide into the scene like an action hero.
Why do I feel insignificant?
Why can I not remember who I am??
Why can I remind others of the power that lives in them....but cannot remind myself?
Melissa McCarthy is bold.
She remembers who she is.
I'm sure riding in on a giant Phoenix was a joke....
But...yet she did it.
With commitment. and boldness.
The unknown is scary, not trying is terrifying.
BE BOLD KAYLA.
BE MELISSA MCCARTHY RAPPING ALL I DO IS WIN WHILE EVERYONE CHEERS YOU ON.
