Fighting to the occasion.

I've been worried sick about my up coming show. 

It just hadn't been coming together. 

And there are lots of factors about why it was not coming together. 

And I threw up. 

But something in me tonight just kicked into gear. 

Everything on stage was there. 

I was meant for that moment. 

And the scene fell into place, in this epic way that you can only understand if you have experienced it. 

And as I drove home I started to sob. 

God spoke. 

This is where I am. 

This is how I am supposed to exist. 

This is where I am supposed to be making my mistakes.

This is where I am supposed to be creating my victories. 

He said, 

"Daughter, I am pleased. You have always pleased me. But tonight, you brought me great joy. You lived. You existed in this moment to your fullest. Watch me take you places higher than this." 

And I Sobbed. 

And Maybe an example from the stage doesn't really resonate with you. 

But I think you all know those moments. 

I think you know that moment when you feel your self grab life by the horns and pin that bull to the ground. 

And I think you know the work that goes into pinning that bull to the ground. 

The disappointment. 

The frustration. 

The hurt. 

The anger. 

The loneliness. 

So, 

Here I am world. 

Here I am friends. 

Here I am God. 

I exist. 

Fully. 

Without hesitation. 

Without an apology. 

Bring. it. on.