Not occasionally.

I'm watching youtube videos.

Videos of incredibly talented people.

Musical theater videos.

And the only thing I can think is...

...I am wasting so much time.

I am wasting so much energy on things that don't matter.

I am capable of the talent in those videos.

I have that talent.

I am good at those things.

And I am wasting time not practicing, and not trying hard enough.

See I have this very lazy habit.

I have this "can't do" mentality.

And I am wasting so much time by letting those things control me.

How does that happen?

How do I move past it?

Those questions are as dumb as the time I am letting pass.

I know how to move past them.

Hard work.

Practice.

Not giving up.

Doing my best.

Not beating myself up.

Relying on the gifts and talents that God gave me.

I'm going to bed.

(Finally! The Mindy project was really good this week, I couldn't not watch it)

I am waking up at 7 am tomorrow.

I am showering.

Dressing like a bomb shell.

Eating breakfast. (cause breakfast is the greatest meal ever, in the words of my friend, Ron Swanson, "There is not a sadness in the world breakfast can not cure." #truth )

Practicing music.

Going to class.

(Killing it in all my classes)

Practicing some more.

Eating healthy.

Encouraging people.

Exercising.

Maybe throwing in some laundry.

Def. some homework.

And seizing every drop of education, love, greatness, hope, peace, and joy out of tomorrow.

Cause I am done wasting time.

I am done watching others be great.

I have greatness in me.

I can do great.

I can do me.