Occasionally a failure.

I feel like every post I post is about how much my life sucks.

But I also feel like people don't want to hear how awesome my life is either.

So I'm in a weird place. It's whatever.

Today, was not a good singing day.

Today, was not a good math day.

Today was not a good Music theory day.

Today was not a good day.

I am up to my limits in homework.

In appointments.

In the amount of practice hours I have ahead of me,

(that I am putting off by complaining about it)

I am tired.

I want to cry.

I want to give up.

I mean there is some doubt creeping up in the back of mind on whether I can do this all or not.

I mean I'm already failing math, and it's only the beginning of the semester.

I wish I could say, it's all okay.

Don't worry Kayla.

But damn it!

I need to do something.

I feel like a failure already.

And I haven't even put forth an efficient amount of effort in order to feel this way.

I need to get my act together.

I need to stop acting like a child.

I am learning all new skills.

It is okay to not be good at everything.

I'm supposed to not be good at these things.

I am supposed to suck at music theory.

I've never done it before!!

Today I am a failure.

Today, I am learning.

Today I am going to suck it up and put the effort in.

Today, I will not let little things like my math computer program not working make me get angry.

Today, I will learn what it means to work hard.

Today, I'm just going to try.

Today, I will not be a failure.