Occasionally kicking ass.

I don't know if you know this about me...but I am a superb pep-talker. 

I know how to make you feel like you can handle anything. 

I address all your insecurities and then make them disappear. 

I have no idea how I do it. 

All I know is that if you need a good reminder of how awesome you are, I am your girl. 

But, I often wonder what I would say to myself if I needed a pep talk. 

I mean, who knows my insecurities better than I?

Probably everyone, I don't hide them well. 

And then I get pissed off when someone sees them!

So here I go. 

A letter. 

From me, to me. 


Dear Kayla,

Get up! Get up out of bed and just do something! 

Anything. 

Today is not going to kill you. 

Today is not going to make you small. 

Today you are going to kick some ass and take some names. 

It's okay. 

You don't have to do everything perfectly the first time. 

You don't even have to get everything right the 100th time. 

You will get it right when you get it right, and then you need to get it right 100 more times. 

It takes time to become great. 

Be patient with yourself. 

You're a beginner. 

You can work hard and efficiently. 

You can eat good food and work out and still have time to practice and do homework. 

Also! Have I mentioned you have great legs!? 

Yea! No! seriously! You do! They are solid, they are shapely and strong and they are NOT man legs.

Speaking of physical beauty! 

Have you seen your self in the mirror lately?

Cause, DAMN. 

Don't even get me started on how big your smile is? It goes perfectly with that red hair of yours! 

And your height! It might be my favorite things about you! You're so short and cute I could put you right in my pocket! 

Keep working out like a boss, cause I know you enjoy it! 

Kayla, I don't think you know this yet, but you're going to change the world. 

You're going to be madly in love with your job, and the people around you, and some handsome man with a beard. Maybe a mustache. 

But just so you know, 

People want and love to hang out with you, all the time. 

You're friends are lucky to have you, and your teachers love having you in class. They've told me so! 

But just so you know, it's okay to be by yourself too. 

Sometimes you just need to do your homework, and miss out on the crazy fun party everyone is going to. 

You're really smart, kiddo. 

And one day you won't have to worry about parties, and homework, because you'll be the party. 

But right now, kick it into gear and do that homework. 

Remember it's okay if you can't get a piece of homework done. It is NOT the end of the world. It does NOT make you a terrible student. 

What makes someone a terrible student is their lack of care toward school. 

You got this. 

Oh! And when you're in choir and voice lessons don't forget to have fun! 

You always get so serious, that's not who you are. 

Enjoy yourself. 

You love to sing! Act like it!

All the practicing that you keep putting off, knock it off! Practicing only makes you better. You can tell and you know it. Just get in the practice room! 

Slow your self down, you don't need to work on a ton of the piece, just small pieces. 

One at a time.  

Don't bite off more than you can chew.

If you only learn one measure correctly, you're doing it right! 

BE PATIENT. 

Speaking of patience, I know some people suck, but don't forget you suck sometimes too, so be kind, be patient, be loving, and listen when people talk. 

Listen, then react. Not the other way around. 

You're a good listener, you can do better. 

I love you. 

I believe in you.

And I want you to succeed. 

I know you're scared. 

I know you are going to mess up, but it's okay, you've been through way worse, and you made it out alive. 

And you aren't alone. 

You have the greatest friends ever. 

Seriously.  You do.

Be at peace, the moment you have now is all you got, make it the best moment you can.

Love, Me. <3

P.S. All the Universities you're visiting this week, would be lucky to have you, just smile, be yourself, and don't let them all intimidate you, they're just people with insecurities, past mistakes, and they have to give themselves pep-talks occasionally too. You're fine. You got this.